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Saying Good-bye to My Mrs.


I'll never forget the night I went to see the movie Marley & Me. I had never in my life been in a room full of strangers that were all crying & sobbing like I did that night. There was an older man that sat next to me & his sadness as he watched the movie poured out of him like I'd never seen before. Dogs are family members.



My little furbaby Mrs. was by my side through all of my adult life. I got her when I was 22 years old, and for 14 years she was the one that was with me through the thick & thin. She was the one that kept my heart warm & hopeful through a painful divorce, the loss of my grandma, surgery for endometriosis, and then she was literally by my side during the injections of IVF. She wrapped herself around my pregnant belly even when her space on my legs got smaller by the day. She brought me comfort by simply being a ball of furry unconditional love. She was my baby. I longed to be a mom for so long & she was the one that kept my arms full, busy, and warm, as I waited.


When I think of HOME, she is it. Opening the front door for packages or guests always involved loud barking & an excited girl. Now when I go to open the door it'll be silent. When I come home & open the garage I'd always hear her crying for me to come in. Now I'll come home to peace & quiet. When I was in the bathroom doing my hair she'd be down below. Now I'll always be looking for her little wagging tail. Her favorite water bowl was in the master bathroom & often times she'd be thirsty as I showered. She'd lay on the floor waiting for me to get out. No longer will I find her waiting for me. Her favorite place to be was cuddled in bed with me. Her spot in the bed is now cold & empty. The sun will now beat on the sofa & she won't be there to dig a comfy spot. When Magnolia drops food down from her high chair, she won't be there to clean it up. Things like pulling hot pans out of the oven will be sad because she won't be there under my feet for me to frantically say "move Mrs.!"


I told Ryan last night that mourning the loss of her is different. It's different because every single thing I did involved her. Even when I wasn't at home I thought I needed to hurry home to her. She was always by my side, always. Now that she is gone I literally feel a huge hole in my heart.


Last winter she had a severe IVDD incident & I thought we were going to lose her then. I sobbed & sobbed & begged for more time. I wanted more than anything for my baby girls to meet. I wanted to see the day that Mrs. could sit under the high chair & eat all the droppings. I believe Mrs. waited her whole life to see me become a human mommy & to live the glory days under a high chair. And she did get that. I am so very grateful I got to see the love our Magnolia had for her too.


My sweet Ry only knew the "old" Mrs., oh but he loved her like he had known her all of her life. She loved him so very much & would always get so excited when I'd say "daddy is home" and when she'd hear the garage door open. They loved to take naps together. When they slept together she'd cuddle up on his pillow, or in his arm,  and towards the end he'd build her a pillow fort to make her feel safe & cozy.  He was very kind with sharing his food with her & she knew that if he was making a plate she better get ready.


Magnolia's third word was DOG & we are pretty sure she had said Mrs. before too. Magnolia had quite a few little games she'd play with her fursister. The thing I'll remember the most was how much Magnolia loved to go into the laundry room & watch her eat. She'd sit behind her & just patiently watch & watch. We think Mrs. enjoyed it too, because we had a game we played with Mrs. She wouldn't ever eat unless there was acknowledgement. She'd like for us to pretend we were going to steal her food so she could growl at us. Magnolia's face would light up with the brightest smile every single time she saw her doggie.



I think my sister & Ryan were both preparing me for the day that I'd have to make the hardest decision of my life. My sister could see what I wasn't able to see, and that was how badly Mrs. was constantly hurting. This sounds terrible, but I think I got used to seeing Mrs. hurting all the time, & I didn't notice her declining health. She was always a little puppy in my eyes, all I could see was her love for me & my love for her.  This last month, in the cold of winter, she was crying in pain more often. She struggled to even walk, and she would often fall on the hard wood floors & bump her head. I'd hear her fall & my heart would just break little by little each time. Her mouth was in bad shape & we'd find blood on the bed linens. She was starting to lose control of her bladder & sometimes struggled to hold in her poop.


This past week was one of the hardest weeks of my life. On Tuesday morning I went to get her out of bed & I barely touched her side before she started running across the bed screaming in pain. It was so sad & scary even Magnolia was crying. Her pain continued on during the week & even the leftover pain medication I had from previous incidents wasn't helping her. She didn't sleep all week long, she would only pace the house. I would go back & forth from taking care of Magnolia during the night & laying with Mrs. on the floor in whatever room she was in. The fact that Mrs. didn't even want to get in bed was the biggest sign that it was getting close to my time to say good-bye.


I knew that this past week was my last with her. I knew I had to let go of my selfish desires to keep her alive forever. I knew somewhere within myself I had to find the bravery to let her go in peace & to take away all the pain she'd been suffering with for so many years. I held her when I could, although it was hard for her to even get comfortable in my arms. I told her how much I loved her over & over again. I gave her a warm bath in the kitchen sink & wrapped her in a towel as we walked around the house waiting for her fur to dry. I sniffed her hair & did all I could to make sure I would always remember the way she smelled. On Friday, I told her it was time to go to Heaven & to see my grandparents & my first chihuahua Juniper. The look in her eyes was loving & sad, all in one. She knew, she knew she couldn't handle the pain any longer. Although I do know she would have kept on fighting had I wanted her too, I just could not see hurting anymore.


This photo was the first nap we had together after Magnolia was born. 

Now I'm at this point of grief where I feel guilt. I feel guilt for letting her hurt in her old age, but then I feel guilt for making the decision to have her put down. I dread having to put her things away & I dread being at home without her. Going to bed last night without her was probably the hardest. I woke up many times feeling my heart aching & knots in my stomach. Every little thing I do now & for the weeks ahead will feel so different without her. Just removing the "do not ring the door bell sign" from the door bell is going to hurt so bad.




To end on a happy note I have to think about all the good memories I had with her. For many years Mrs. would crawl under my shirt & cuddle on my belly. I'd walk around the house looking like I was pregnant with a tail hanging out below. When I turned 30 my co-workers put a photo of Mrs. & me on a billboard. She was a famous chihuahua for one day. She wasn't the type of dog that wanted to go for walks, however I did wear a sling & carry her around like a baby for many years. She wore the finest clothes from a doggy boutique, accessorized with diamond necklaces, & vanilla perfume. She went on road trips & we had spa days at home. She ate ice cream cones & freshly baked cookies. She always slept in bed with her humans & was the best cuddle bug I've ever known. She got to feel her sister kicking her before she was even born. She even has a hashtag on Instagram #mrspb. My list of happy memories could go on forever & ever, because I was the luckiest of fur moms to have picked her out of the palm of her breeder's hand one spring night.




She was laid to rest in a wooden coffin box that my brother-in-law made. In the coffin are her blankets & a few photos & notes that I wanted to keep with her. We buried her on his land with the other fur babies that have crossed the rainbow bridge. I sent a photo of the coffin to my sisters and they noticed something I hadn't noticed. On the top of the coffin, the wood had formed what looks just like a watercoloring of a dried rose. The crazy part of it all is that we have roses in our house right now & I kept thinking I should have brought roses to the land before we buried her. I didn't though, and as my sister said "there is a rose on her coffin that will remain forever."


I just hope that right now she is cuddled on the lap of my grandma or grandpa, and that she is eating all the best of treats, and feeling the warmth of sunshine. I hope she isn't causing too much ruckus barking at all the angels, although she probably is!

Now I understand the meaning of a man's best friend.

The Last Battle 
If it should be that I grow frail and weak
And pain should keep me from my sleep,
Then will you do what must be done,
For this -- the last battle -- can't be won.
You will be sad I understand,
But don't let grief then stay your hand,
For on this day, more than the rest,
Your love and friendship must stand the test.
We have had so many happy years,
You wouldn't want me to suffer so.
When the time comes, please, let me go.
Take me to where to my needs they'll tend,
Only, stay with me till the end
And hold me firm and speak to me
Until my eyes no longer see.
I know in time you will agree
It is a kindness you do to me.
Although my tail its last has waved,
From pain and suffering I have been saved.
Don't grieve that it must be you
Who has to decide this thing to do;
We've been so close -- we two -- these years,
Don't let your heart hold any tears.

-- Unknown
With love & tears xo
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His & Her Wood Watches by JORD


Have you seen the new wood watches by JORD? 

Ryan & I got HIS & HER watches & they are beautiful. The modern look + the natural wood tones is an effortless addition to our wardrobe. They are lightweight & very comfortable to wear. 


With Valentine's Day right around the corner I'm so excited to share with you our new wooden watches & a giveaway I'm doing with JORD. There are a few things I believe always make a romantic gift on Valentine's Day & a new watch is one of them! 


To enter the GIVEAWAY fill out this short & sweet form > here.  
The end date to enter is Friday, February 9th. 
The winner will receive a $100 gift card, plus FREE SHIPPING & FREE SIZING. 
Starting today & until the end of the giveaway you may use the following coupon code for $25 off at JORD: WENDYCORREEN


I had the hardest time deciding between the Rose & Rose Gold face, and finally picked the Rose. I'm so happy with my decision, it's the perfect pinch of color. I'm wearing the Cora Series watch in Zebrawood & Rose. I adore all the little sparkly stones for the finest of detailing. And the best part of all - no batteries needed! 


Ryan is wearing the Conway series in Kosso & Midnight Blue. It's a classic watch with a modern 
touch. He says "it fits just right" & I think it looks very handsome on him!  


I am Mrs. Smith thanks to Ryan asking me to the Eric Church concert! I had met him many years before & nothing became of us the first time our paths crossed. The timing was not right then. It was the second time we met, thanks to our mutual best friends (his best friend is married to my best friend). On a whim he asked me to the Eric Church concert & I didn't know how to respond, and so I didn't. Several weeks had passed & he followed up with my best friend, asking again, if I would go with him to the concert. I replied to her with "just say YES!" 


His wedding band is engraved with TAKE ME TO CHURCH, and so I had his watch engraved with the same words. My cedar box with the same engraving will be a keepsake forever. 


If you were to give a JORD watch as a gift remember the extra special touch of engraving it. Thoughtful gifts are the very best, and this would certainly make one to be cherished for all of time! 

In case you missed the giveaway details above they are below again. 

There's only one thing more precious than our time, and that's who we spend it on. - Leo Christopher

Happy Valentine's Day & Good Luck to You 

XOXO

To enter the GIVEAWAY fill out this short & sweet form > here.  
The end date to enter is Friday, February 9th. 
The winner will receive a $100 gift card, plus FREE SHIPPING & FREE SIZING. 
Starting today & until the end of the giveaway you may use the following coupon code for $25 off at JORD: WENDYCORREEN
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Love Day


It's just about LOVE Day & so I wanted to share a few of my sweetest inspirations with you. And I also have to share a few cutsie photos of Miss Magnolia in the Valentine's section of Target! I joke that Target is her winter playground & there is actually quite a bit of truth to that. She had Ryan giggling as she jumped around in her cart before we got inside! I do try to make our shopping trips a fun learning experience, although posing for the camera in the stuffed animal aisle was certainly a first.



These pink milk heart shaped ice cubes are by far the easiest & cutest thing I've found. Once they start to melt in your milk (or almond milk in our home) it'll turn pink! Heart shaped ice trays here.

Also, on the easy + cute list are these Teddy Bear Graham Crackers Holding Conversation Hearts! Your grocery list will only be this short: teddy bear graham crackers, conversation hearts, and icing. I plan to make these one day soon.



Circus Cookie Milkshakes, it's a milkshake with bits of cookies in it, plus pink frosting, topped with whipped cream, and more cookies, and SPRINKLES!!!

Ok, so if you're still on a New Year's diet, this one will be good for you. Whipped Grapefruit Mint Sugar Scrub & I've got the hook-up with all the best oils here.

I've always wanted to make homemade pop tarts & now I really need to make these with extra pink sprinkles, of course.

Strawberry Cake in a Jar & you may not be able to stop with just one!


I've had quite a few people ask about Magnolia's rainbow dress from here & currently on sale.
Silver Glitter Shoes here // Top Knot here // Itzy Ritzy Shopping Cart Cover here // Confetti Tights here

Would love to hear about your Valentine's plans for the ones you love.

XO

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Have a Rainbow & Sunshine Kind of Weekend


The weekend is upon us & I want to share a few of my favorites from the week.


This home tour will leave you feeling full of rainbows & sunshine.

The Best Beauty Supplements for Every Concern.

I just downloaded this song on Amazon Prime - Rainbow Kitten Surprise & I plan to listen to it every chance I get. I can't wait for the new album in April 2018!

Two rainbow pillows that belong in your home here & here.

A little piece about E.E. Cummings - The Courage to Be Yourself

Take-me-away to one of these 25 rooms with ocean views! I'm craving the water right now.

This dust pan reminds me of my grandma & it's pink & I need it.

What are essential oils & are they legit? Read this.

I was at the dentist yesterday & The House of Horror came up in conversation. I was left with nothing much to say, except a sadness in my heart. This is not an uplifting read, but gives a little insight into the psychology of the parents.

A Vegan Super Bowl Party Platter that won't leave you missing the junk.

I've been wearing my Hunter Boots for weeks & they're currently on sale here.

Shepra pullovers are in right now & I'm loving this one.

Have you seen wood watches? I cannot wait to show you our new watches & you're going to want one. Next Friday I'll be sharing details of a giveaway you will not want to miss out on!

Have a happy one!
XO
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9 Adorable Baby Pajama Sets


There is nothing cuter than a baby in sweet little jammies! Yesterday I shared Five Things I Didn't Know I Needed before bringing Magnolia home from the hospital. I mentioned the zip-up footed pajamas she's wearing here. When we have another baby we will stock up on these instead of all the cute outfits, especially if we have another winter baby.


With her first birthday quickly approaching I've been going down memory lane & looking at all the itty-bitty baby photos I have of her. We lived in pajamas those first few months. And who am I kidding, we still do! Today I'm sharing nine of my current favorites for the little tots.























Hey momma, if you're looking for some cute pajamas I'm currently eyeing these.

XO
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Bringing Home Baby & Five Things I Didn't Know I Needed


In 17 days our little baby will be ONE year old. I started to get sentimental this morning thinking about her birthday & the fact that I'll be one big ball of emotions at her first birthday party. While I was pregnant with Magnolia I read everything to prepare myself for motherhood. I talked to friends & my sisters, and I had years of experience with babies thanks to my early days of babysitting & all my nieces. I started on my baby registry months before my shower & I had everything I could imagine I'd possibly need before bringing her home for the hospital. One of my most popular blog posts was our Ikea Diaper Changing Cart that I had written before I had her. And while all those baby necessities came in handy, there were a few random things I didn't have. Today I'm sharing five items that I didn't know I needed.


1. Sound Machine // I had no idea how important it was to create a womb like experience for a baby until after I had Magnolia. It makes total sense now, but while I was pregnant with her it slipped my mind, it wasn't on any lists I read, and no one told me to get a sound machine. Thanks sisters, ha 😉! Magnolia slept like a baby, and by "sleeping like a baby" I mean she didn't sleep well at all. I went for weeks running on only a few hours of sleep & I was sleep deprived in a way I didn't know was possible. I did everything imaginable to help her sleep. For a little while I used an app on my phone to create a womb like experience. And then one day we were at a big box baby store & I found the Dohm All Natural Sound Machine & it changed my life! We still use it every night & honestly, I think I will continue to use it for years to come. I cannot describe the sound other than "real" & "soothing" for not only Magnolia, but us too. This is a must have!

2. Halo SleepSack Swaddle // Okay, so maybe this one is a no-brainer, and YES this was on lists & YES my sister told me to get some. In my defense, even her pediatrician said he felt the same way as me before he became a dad. I didn't think I needed them. I knew how to swaddle a baby & I wanted to use the pretty muslin swaddle blankets I had put on my registry. All the Instagram moms use the floral swaddles to get their babies to sleep, so that was my plan also! Side note: don't let Instagram staged photos fool you about infant sleep. It didn't work, she escaped my swaddling & she made me believe she hated to be swaddled. Finally her pediatrician convinced me to get some velcro sleep sacks & they helped, a lot! Now breaking the habit of the swaddle is a whole other blog post. The Halo brand was my favorite.

3. Cloth Diapers // This is an odd one if you plan on using disposable diapers like us. At the hospital they use cloth diapers as burp clothes & as changing pads. The nurse was nice enough to send a bunch home with us & we soon realized we needed more of them. To Amazon Prime we went for more. We had plenty of adorable burp clothes made by my sister, but it was the cloth diapers that we used each time we changed her poopy diapers. It felt as though she pooped 15x a day, maybe she did, I cannot remember now. Anyway, they came in handy to protect whatever surface we were using to change her & I still use them today. Under the cloth diapers I use a waterproof pad like these.

4. Probiotic Drops // I had no idea how terrible colic or acid reflux was in babies before I had Magnolia. I had heard stories about colic & I know my sister had it. My mom still talks about it to this day. There were days we could not get her to stop crying & there were so many nights I'd walk the house with a red-faced screaming baby wishing I could bring her comfort. She ended up having silent acid reflux & her doctor suggested probiotic drops. I shared about them here. I'm grateful that we didn't have to start a prescription medication & that the drops with time + patience was all she needed.

5. Zip-up Footed Pajamas // As a first time mom I wanted all the cute outfits for my baby. She has a few darling dresses she never wore because she grew out of them faster than we had places to wear them. It was the footed zip-up pajamas from The Gap, that my bestie from college sent me, that she wore on repeat for a good month or two. I didn't realize the importance of a zipper until I started changing diapers every single hour of the day. Who wants to deal with snaps at one am!?!? The Gap jammies were the best quality & definitely my favorite. If I was shopping for a new baby I'd probably get at least five pairs of them!

Before wrapping this up, I must mention the 1 Second Everyday - Video Diary because I just now started to use it. I wish I would have started sooner! Each day you add one photo or small one second video to the app & then it'll make a video diary for you. It's so cool & fun, and such a great way to document your baby's life. Even if you don't use the app, I highly suggest taking photos each day. Some nights while she is sleeping next to me I'll scroll through my camera roll & look at all the photos of her & I'll literally relive my emotions in the moment that I have saved forever. Taking lots of photos will always be my #1 piece of advice for new parents. 

Well there is my list of must-haves that you may or may not find on all the new parent lists out there.

Please comment below if there is anything you'd like to add to this list, I'd love to hear.

XO


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White Glitter Falling From The Black Sky


I read the other day that toddlers laugh an average of 400 times a day --- isn't that the cutest thing?

Sunday morning we woke up before the sunrise & to our delight we saw white glitter falling from the black sky. I turned on the string lights that hang above our back deck & we stood at the kitchen door watching the air sparkle. By the time the sun came up the ground was all white. We barely got an inch of snow, but for Magnolia the world looked quite different. And for that reason we decided to celebrate it.


Ryan & I decided that it'd be a good day to go for a Sunday drive. We bundled up & hopped in the car to head south to his parent's land. As soon as we stopped the car & got out, Ryan spotted a bald eagle. He only saw it flying in the air for a moment so he likes to add the disclaimer that he's not 100% positive it was a bald eagle, but he's pretty darn sure it was. I only saw the tip of it's white tail flying over the snow covered grown. Did you know Native Americans consider bald eagles to be sacred? They are the highest flying birds & seen to be nearer to our creator. The bald eagle symbolizes courage, wisdom, and strength and it's purpose is a messenger from our creator.



We snapped a few photos by the water, at the very spot Ryan & I were married. On our wedding day we had several moments that were certainly messages from our Heavenly Father.

We drove around the land & saw a family of deer in the distance. From the warm car we watched them prance through the snow & up a hill. Being out in nature, breathing in the cold air, was the refreshment I needed.






Did you know that the average 40-year-old only laughs four times a day?

This little girl has changed me in more ways than I could have ever imagined. She's straight from the arms of angel & teaching me so much each day. To simply see the white glitter falling from the dark sky like she did - it was so very good for the soul.


On the topic of good for the soul, this story will literally warm your heart.

And remember, small pleasures are a big deal.

XO
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Valentine's Day Gift Guide for the Little Girls


I always say Valentine's Day is my favorite holiday, of course I say that about Christmas too. And everyone's birthday, oh, and also Easter! If there is a reason to celebrate love & happiness I'm all in. My mom always made Valentine's Day a special day, with sweet little gifts for all of us. I'll always remember the year she surprised me with a watch I had wanted for a long time. I hope to make each & every holiday a big deal for our Sweet Magnolia.

I put together some girly pink + glittery gifts for the little girls in your life. They range in price from $5 and up. You don't have to spend a fortune to make someone feel loved on Sweetheart's Day!


1. Rainbow Pillow Pink // I'm really into rainbows lately, and the soft pastel colors in this handmade pillow are darling. Everyone wants to hug a rainbow!

2. Glitter Heart Sleep Set // You cannot celebrate Valentine's Day without pink + hearts + glitter.  We spend a lot of time in our pajamas, so it's always a good investment to have new ones to go along with the holiday of the moment.

3. Crayola Valentine's Day Marker, Stamp & Paper Set // Let them make Valentine's for all the ones they love.

4. Ryan & Wren Glitter Hair Snap Clips // Modern + simple + glittery & only $5 each. I love to support handmade shops and this is one that I adore.

5. 250 Valentine's Stickers // I saw this huge bucket of stickers at Target yesterday & I couldn't believe my eyes when I read that it was only $5. They are really nice quality, sparkly, pretty stickers & such a great deal. I think even for a sticker obsessed little girl this would last years, or you'll have a bedroom wall covered in all things Valentine's Day 😉 !!!

6. Pink Garden Chair // How darling is this Little Tikes Garden Chair? Magnolia will most likely have this on our back deck by spring. And it's not even $15 on Amazon.

7. Strawberry Fujifilm Instax Mini Camera // Ok, I have to admit, the little girl in me really wants this camera. Is Magnolia old enough for this yet!?!?

8. Jellycat Swan Rose // We are obsessed with everything by Jellycat. And I'll tell you why! They are incredibly soft, pretty, & they don't shed like some cheaper stuffed animals. Magnolia was able to play with her Jellycat bunny when she was itty bitty because the fur didn't get in her mouth. Jellycat is the way to go if you want a plush toy for a little tot.

9. Glitter Bow Ballet Flats // Not only does your little girl need to wear these with all her Valentine's Day outfits now, she can wear them all year long for just a pinch of sweetness each day! And they are currently on sale.

Sealed with a kiss xo

Shop more sweet Valentine's Gifts below.


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