I sat across from Magnolia at lunch today, as I looked into her innocent blue eyes she told me she felt scared & excited about her newly loose tooth. I told her how much I understand. Those two words were the theme of 2022 and I'm certain they'll be carried into 2023, but with a little more emphasis on the exciting part. In 29 days I'll start injections for IVF and the thought of it all is terrifying and exciting. Magnolia talks about her brother/sister as if they are already here, already a part of her life, a guaranteed angel that will join us very soon. Every time she talks about being a big sister my heart jumps for joy and then it falls down and the walls I've created remind me of the babies we lost and the challenges we have in getting pregnant. What I fear the most is letting her down. What I hope for the most is the blessing from Heaven above.
Imagine walking into a cloud of cotton candy, and then imagine seeing an old fashioned candy shop where the walls are painted pastel pink, baby blue, and cool mint. It's like a dream and then imagine seeing your baby girl's monogram MSC on it all. All the feelings of magic turn to feelings of serendipity. This moment was nothing short of a dream come true!
What a whirlwind of a vacation and it was pure magic. I had absolutely no idea how much Ryan and I would love Disney World. We went into this trip with the mentality that we were doing this solely for Magnolia. I have friends that are diehard Disney fanatics, but never in my wildest dreams did I think I would love this trip as much as them. Ryan and I even walked into the parks on the first day being secretly pessimistic because the crowds were gawd-awful (and I even like the energy of crowds) and somehow the magic took us over. It was the smell of waffle cones being made and cotton candy being spun, it was glittery fireworks in the sky every hour, the parades and marching bands, princesses surprising us around every corner, the sound of laughter in the air, it was everything magical all at once. Literally, it swept us off our feet! We were having just as much fun as Magnolia.
Filling our home with all the shiny tinsel, glittery jewels, felt candy canes, fuzzy yarn, velvet ribbon, disco balls & sparkle stars, and unlimited cups of overflowing hot chocolate.
For this DIY you'll need this $5 tinsel wreath, fuzzy yarns, and felt candy canes. Hobby Lobby has the best selection of yarns and ribbons, and usually on sale every other week. All of the supplies for this DIY can be purchased locally or ordered online. I removed all the plastic bulbs from the wreath and then tied the yarns and ribbons around the wreath frame until it was as full as I wished. Lastly, added the felt candy canes. You can see the steps on my Instagram reel here.
It's official, we are doing IVF again!!! Yesterday, on the first of December, Ryan and I signed up for the early February cycle and injections will start at the very end of January.
Our new doctor, Dr. Riggs at Blue Sky, ran every test under the sun. No kidding, over 300 tests just on me alone (the genetic carrier test was 274 of that), and praise the Lord I'm so grateful everything came back normal. The only thing against us this time around is my age and the fact that my 41 year old ovaries were cut on during the laparoscopy for endometriosis in June. He's not even worried about the endometriosis, he's confident he can get to the eggs just fine. Now we just pray and believe I have a few golden eggs remaining and we can make a healthy embryo. I'm taking all the supplements and living the cleanest lifestyle possible, something I've been doing for many many years.
I remember when we did IVF in 2015 for Magnolia and the pure amazement we felt about the science that goes into it all. What I remember the very most were the prayers and miracles along the way. While the science is astonishing, the prayers and faith and miracles are life changing. I am forever changed because of our first (one and only) golden embryo, Magnolia, and will always give the Glory to God for the gift of her. I'll be sharing more along the way because I believe in the power of prayer more than anything else. I'll forever be grateful for the friends and family that prayed for us during IVF in 2015. And now seven years later, all three of us cannot thank you more for reading this and praying for a brother or sister for our Magnolia Caroline.
Our new doctor, Dr. Riggs at Blue Sky, ran every test under the sun. No kidding, over 300 tests just on me alone (the genetic carrier test was 274 of that), and praise the Lord I'm so grateful everything came back normal. The only thing against us this time around is my age and the fact that my 41 year old ovaries were cut on during the laparoscopy for endometriosis in June. He's not even worried about the endometriosis, he's confident he can get to the eggs just fine. Now we just pray and believe I have a few golden eggs remaining and we can make a healthy embryo. I'm taking all the supplements and living the cleanest lifestyle possible, something I've been doing for many many years.
I remember when we did IVF in 2015 for Magnolia and the pure amazement we felt about the science that goes into it all. What I remember the very most were the prayers and miracles along the way. While the science is astonishing, the prayers and faith and miracles are life changing. I am forever changed because of our first (one and only) golden embryo, Magnolia, and will always give the Glory to God for the gift of her. I'll be sharing more along the way because I believe in the power of prayer more than anything else. I'll forever be grateful for the friends and family that prayed for us during IVF in 2015. And now seven years later, all three of us cannot thank you more for reading this and praying for a brother or sister for our Magnolia Caroline.
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