A Divine Dream
April 1st 2018, also Easter Sunday, I miscarried what would have been our second baby at 10.5 weeks. We had conceived "her" naturally after being told IVF was the only way we'd ever have babies. Magnolia had just turned one. We didn't know the gender, but I always felt it was a baby girl and we would have named her Meadow Reign. Every April I think about her, and then again in October I think about how old she'd be on her due date. This year she'd be turning four in October.
I had the most beautiful dream early this morning. I was walking on a white bridge with Magnolia on my right hand and Meadow on my left. Meadow looked just like Magnolia did at 3.5. You can imagine my heart and soul felt pure joy in this moment with both my girls holding my hands in this beautiful place. As we got to the end of the bridge we came to a field of flowers, a meadow of flowers. Meadow went to pick the one and only golden flower in the field. As she pulled on it, it kept getting bigger and bigger instead of being plucked. It couldn't be picked. I then had Magnolia and Meadow hold hands and I remember telling Magnolia "this is your sister!" I picked them both little pink flowers and handed them to my baby girls.
I didn't want to wake up, but I did, and then I looked at the time on my phone and it was 7:17 am. 7/17 is the day my grandma went to Heaven!!! July 17, 2015. Every morning before I get out of bed I read my Jesus Calling app and today it started off with "Trust is a GOLDEN pathway to Heaven." GOLDEN!!! The bible verse at the end was John 14:1 (4/1 again - the day we lost our baby).
John 14:1 "Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you."
Photo of Magnolia & Me in a meadow of flowers when she was 3.5 years old
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